Before starting my final major project I must find out what to do for it and the best way to do that is to delve deeper into myself and what I love.
In order to do this I created a mind map of what I love and although it may seem lacking, these are truly the things outside of family that I love.
Although I forgot to put it down my family have been my biggest influence throughout life, without them I wouldn’t have ever gotten into games and it was also a couple of my brothers that influenced me to go down the path of games development. Despite the fact I am now looking to go down the path of history and politics in further education, It may have taken me longer to discover what I’m truly passionate about.
This has really helped to me understand myself more as well as the things that influence me and my actions.
Looking at this I can notice quite a change from last year as politics and history, topics I was only interested in last year are now both deep passions of mine and are driving my career choices down a different path.
On the other hand I don’t believe this helped me much with discovering what I want to do for my FMP, but I can say I want to do a project related to pixel art as after my brief time doing it last term, I found that I really enjoyed it and would like to do more on it.
Interviewing and being interviewed
In order to further understand myself I did an interview with a fellow classmate and we would ask each other a series of questions about our interests, hobbies, career aspirations etc.
Interviews are a great way to have a conversation around a specific opinion or getting to know someone’s life choices, experiences, future aspirations etc. There are other factors that can effect an interview outside of the answers given, for instance the posture of the interviewee is very important as it can give off an understanding of the sort of attitude they would bring to a work place. An example of this would be slouching, it gives off the impression that the interviewee doesn’t care, is lazy and is overall just not going to be that productive. As a primary research technique this is extremely useful as there are a lot of things you can learn about someone and as you are directly talking to someone you can ask follow up questions or change questions based on their answers.
Below are the interviews:
Report on Reece Bensted.
-Good strong posture
-Art, photography, games, magic, music – key interests/hobbies
– Interest in art came from games because they’re quite visual and he loved taking all the art in
– games inspired life decisions as his love for the art drove him to attend an art school and doing photography, fine art and graphic design, prefers to express himself using visuals/art.
– Wants to do concept art and prefers digital art, although he can do drawings he prefers digital as he found an interest in it but couldn’t pin point exactly why.
– Games have taught him to look deeper into games, past what he sees but to also think deeply about the people behind, the effort that goes into the sounds and story writing etc.
– Listens to Rap mainly but also enjoys other depending on mood, relates to the lyrics of rap and the emotions they can convey, makes him feel more comfortable and more confident.
– Feels the message of some songs and artists have been able to help him through life, for example not letting anyone just push you around.
– Found a passion for magic because he desired the truth behind the tricks, to figure out the mystery and share his knowledge with family and friends.
– Off and on jobs, currently unemployed but has learnt about time management and has boosted his confidence due to working with strangers and going out of his comfort zone.
– Confidence has had an effect on his life, throughout his school time he found himself seen as an outcast but now finds that his confidence has improved and will continue to do but doesn’t think his confidence is currently at the level it should be.
– Interested in design/concept art; games, web or app design.
– Applying to Brighton University as it has the course he wants and he’s amazed with bright the art of the town is and how art focused it actually is but it also reminds him of his hometown (Dover) so it won’t be so hard for him to get around.
– Doesn’t like Dover as he feels people there lack aspiration and creativity and feels it’s quite a negative and grey town that outside of its cliffs and castle has been ignored by others (Could say he feels that staying there could bring him down/limit his creativity so he wants to leave and go somewhere he feels he could enjoy being).
Reece’s report on me:
Lucas’ top three main interests are politics, history and games. Lucas has five overall brothers, two with the same mother and father and the other three are half brothers. Lucas is the youngest, they like to support him but there tends to be sibling rivalry. Nothing harsh, just jokes and being silly. They like to just let Lucas to get on with what he’s doing for College etc. He has separated parents who live in Dymchurch and Greatstone. He travels back and forth to each location a set number of times a week. One of Lucas’ favourite topics is history, particularly contemporary history. Wars interest him the most, he thinks it’s important for people to learn from it. Otherwise we would just re-make the same mistakes. In other words society develops from history. Lucas preferred history before politics, but he thinks he’s influenced by his father as they both discuss politics together. He would like to further his education in Politics but he isn’t sure where or in what area yet. But he would like to be able to hare his messages through politics to make a difference in the world. Lucas’ first memory of playing games takes him back to when the PlayStation 2 was around. He was about seven or eight years old and that’s when his hobby for game begun. He currently owns an Xbox One and uses his laptop for both gaming and college work. His views on games has changed as he has gotten older and certainly the course has taught him a lot about the industry. He is happy with where he is, he’s succeeding in class with a high merit and also works in at a part time job behind a bar and waiting in a pub-restaurant. He speaks to his friends about what he does more than his parents and siblings, and his friends relate to it more as they do similar subjects. Lucas’ younger brother loves games like he does and that helps them bond. He plans to go to University to study politics and history. He doesn’t have a final end goal where he wants to be, he’s not too sure where to even start yet but he’ll work his way through his own journey and see where he gets to.
This is a pretty spot on analogy of me and all my answers in the interviews, I do not know where to start but like he said, I will work through the journey and see where it goes.
Myers Briggs Personality test:
In order to further understand myself I took the Myers Briggs personality test of which I had to answer with brutal honesty even if I didn’t like what I had put, this was in order to get the result that best represented me. As I was doing the test with this way I only took it once.
The theory behind the test is that everyone falls into 16 different personality which is made up by 4 parts; Extrovert or introvert, sensing or intuition, thinking or feeling and judging or perceiving. Through a series of questions which relate to those 4 parts the test can with a good degree of accuracy determine what type of personality someone has.
After taking the test I got the result of IOFP+T (The Adventurer) which stands for what can be seen below.
The results suggested that I was quite spontaneous, charming, sensitive to others, imaginative, passionate, curious, artistic, fiercely independent, unpredictable, easily stressed, overly competitive with a fluctuating self-esteem. They also suggested I tend to think short-term which allows problems to build up.
Although I agree with most of the points I do believe myself to spontaneous at all or artistic but I could just be thinking those due to my self-esteem. I have never found myself to very spontaneous but that doesn’t mean I can’t be, and I don’t find myself to artistic at all but rather try to avoid being so.
Some of the points do resonate with my quite a bit though for instance I do find myself to be very independent most of the time and as the results said that can actually turn out to be a weakness more often than not, I do also agree with being easily stressed as things can really get to me as I let them pile up more and more till it’s too late.
What I did learn from it is actually how colourful I am as a person once I put thought into it.
I agree with the theory and the test as they can really help someone pinpoint who they are, it can help those who struggle to understand themselves and from what I could tell, majority of the classroom found the test quite accurate
Although I tend to find these tests to be poppycock, I thought this test to be quite accurate and sound. It has helped to understand myself despite some parts of the results not being to how I see myself.
16personalities. 2016. 16personalities. [ONLINE] Available at: https://www.16personalities.com/isfp-personality. [Accessed 12 January 2017].
Myers Briggs Part 2:
After doing it for myself I then had a friend that knew me quite well do it for me as well, this was in order to get a different point of view about my personality and what it can be seen as.
My friends result was ‘The Mediator’ (INFP) which says that although they may be seen as shy, calm or reserved, they have a inner fire/passion that can truly stick out. It also says they quite often feel misunderstood and I can honestly agree with that, I quite often do feel misunderstood.
It talks about how mediators are often guided by their principle above all else, being led by the purity of their intent which I find myself agreeing with as well as being proud of it but also how that ideal being misunderstood which can cause me to feel isolated. (Which it also says on the page)
“At their best, these qualities enable INFPs to communicate deeply with others, easily speaking in metaphors and parables, and understanding and creating symbols to share their ideas.”
The more I read into this personality type, the more I agree with it as I quite often do what is says above, however I am quite the opposite of what it says when it comes to learning other languages as I find myself to struggle greatly with the task.
The last section of the introduction page is a spot on description of myself that I can’t disagree with at all.
After reading through it I can truly say that I was wrong about myself, my result was wrong and must have come about from me not answering with full honesty in an attempt to be someone who I am not. Everything on this personality type fits almost perfectly with who I am which has been extremely helpful in discovering who I am.
Primary research report:
Having research into myself using these three different ways to evaluate myself, I found out quite a bit more about myself and also how I am viewed by others. By creating a mind map of the things I loved, I managed to really figure out what my main passions are. The interview between me and a classmate allowed us to learn more about each other’s lives and the opportunity to ask questions about our inspirations and aspirations. Lastly I took an online personality test, answering a series of questions and rating them on a scale of one to five, the end result would see what my personality group is depending on how I answered the questions.
I’d have to say interview was the most effective form of research because in an interview, you’re having a one on one with someone. The interviewer and interviewee can hear the tones and see the posture of each other, helping them to determine their way of thought and their attitude. You’re having to answer questions personally from yourself and not from a list of answers that are just gathering data on a 1-5 scale like the Myers Briggs test.
Although the mind map is good for getting things down, it doesn’t help anyone to understand your personality as people with entirely different personalities could enjoy the same things.
The Myers Briggs test may have been the most useful to me, but I think that interviews are a much better way to truly understand someone, especially because the test judges everything on a 1-5 scale which avoids any truly personal answer to the questions.
16personalities. 2016. 16personalities. [ONLINE] Available at: https://www.16personalities.com/isfp-personality. [Accessed 18 January 2017].